Questions

Everytime I see this man, lot of questions suddenly appear in my mind

are you the right man?

are you the answer?

are you for real?

are you a reality?

can you throw away my doubt?

can you hold my hand everyday and protect me when the sun looks so bright?

can you covering me when rain looks so heavy?

can you accept me in my bad condition?

can we survive with many differences that clearly seen between us?

can we always keep this  "fighting" until the end?


and....

are you the man that I will spend my lifetime with?

sometimes lot of doubt disturbing me, I let it go, I give this man a chance to erase it one by one, convince me, makes me feel warm and safe. until the end we can see, how far we go, how long we can hold this relationship, how could we can stand in worst situation. 


"because I want you to be a part of my daily life, I want us having a dynamic relationship, that's why I never say I Love You, because what I feel about you more than just that thing" 

Nerd Taciturn Man

 Time moves so fast, what i've been through feels like dream. thanks god finally I can continue my education at gadjah mada university, and especially in my favorite major, political science. remembering my hard time makes me never stop to be grateful of what I have.

I've been a month living in this stranger city.....

Meet some strangers aren't an easy things, yaa usually I feel culture shock -_-', but it's okay. Till I knew someone... errr not a special one, but he looks so tired, lonely and missing something. He loves to sit in the front seat. second chair from right. lil bit nerd right? but sometimes I cheated time, I saw his eyes when we had a same class. there's a lot of spirit inside it, lot of energy and responsibility. he doesn't look like the man I saw before. hmm weird huh?

Next day he said "Hello" to me, sent some text, hmm  might be he tried having conversation to me, as a friend I let him to made it. huh woow he got a lot of achievement :O I appreciate that. but hmm sometimes I wonder who is he look like?  aha, this low profile, warm face and big experiences look like my father. ya I mark him, honestly.

Day by day we become closer, how could be this taciturn man, share his world to me, he said that he felt so comfortable to share his life with me. lil but weird huh?

Spending time together in fact not that bad, he's quite good at making little smile on my face. yaa might be this nerd taciturn man is the answer for me, we'll see then....